In my constellation of identities one reads “your lover”
“Here we are.”
I gasped for a bit of breath as I took my final stride up the hill. It wasn’t really one of exasperation, just unatheleticness (I remember the last time I ran a mile– it was freshman year gym and the only bad grade that tainted my line of As).
“Are you okay?”
We made eye contact for the first time in 30 minutes. My eyes had been set on the dirt that moved beneath my feet, or the dirt that I moved over, whichever it was. Now i faced pools of blue, against more of the same.
“You haven’t said anything this whole time.”
I didn’t move. My face made no adjustments. I stood and I drowned.
We broke our shared gaze. I jumped out of the pools and found myself gasping for air again.
I am dizzy.
You shine so bright
I want to revolve around you
I loved every indentation you made in my impressionable heart
Because it meant you were becoming
a part of me
My lips are chapped
And my mouth is sore
My eyes are wet
But maybe that’s okay since
I have no more
kisses left to give
I’m just afraid that
if I keep fighting for you hell or high water,
eventually I’m going to drown.
slowly i will forget you. The soft sound that loudly embraced love like no other. the music you played me. The music you were. the songs you liked that i listened to because i loved. the songs we shared. i will forget what your voice sounds like when its singing me to sleep. i will forget because otherwise i will imagine it. i will know it is away from me.